Tragedy made me a writer.
My
fourteen-month-old son Corey died from a head injury after a minor fall off the
backyard swing. Life as I knew it was over. I faced a crisis of faith that took
time to work through. Although I’d never written before, I knew I was supposed
to share my experiences. I wrote a deeply personal book for adults entitled Forgiving God: A Woman’s Struggle When God
Answers No.
After
that book, I continued writing. I believed I could write about the lives of
other people and keep my own emotions unattached and a safe distance away. I
was wrong. I soon discovered that I’d use the fire of my own emotions to choose
topics and write about them in a way that only I could.
When
I was doing the research for Something
Out of Nothing: Marie Curie and Radium, my mother was dying of cancer. On nights
I spent beside her hospital bed, I filled my sleepless hours reading research
material. I searched for the best way to make a reader understand that
underneath the always-stern-looking Curie, beat the heart of a vulnerable woman
who had faced a lot of adversity.
While I grieved the loss of my own loved
ones, I wrote about the day Marie’s husband, Pierre Curie, died. Tears flowed
down my cheeks as I wrote and rewrote that scene. Still today, I tear up when I
read the words I wrote.
As
I searched for the topic of my next book, a photograph I’d seen once lurked in
the back of my mind. It was of Nazi soldiers surrounding an elderly Jewish man,
laughing as they cut off his beard. I started researching the Holocaust, looking
for a true story that hadn’t been told. When
I found Varian Fry, I knew that was the book I had to write.
Fry
was an American journalist who volunteered to go to Marseilles, France, in 1940
to rescue Jewish refugees trapped there. As I researched In Defiance of Hitler: The Secret Mission of Varian Fry, I studied
Hitler’s rise to power and the war in Europe. While writing the text, I chose
each word carefully so that my readers would be transported to the streets of
Marseilles in 1940. I want readers to feel the fear and desperation of the
refugees who were trapped there. I want them to understand how Varian Fry and
his team felt as they made life-and-death choices about who they could help and
who they couldn’t.
As
a writer, I must feel the emotions first (oh yes, I feel them). Then, hopefully,
my readers will feel them too.
I’ve
tackled another difficult topic in my newest book, Buried Lives: The Enslaved People of George Washington’s Mount Vernon.
In it, I’ve highlighted the lives of six enslaved people who served the
Washington family. For the past five years, I’ve felt a host of emotions as
I’ve thought about the lives of each one.
I
hope my readers will see these six individuals as real, flesh and blood people
with the same feelings we have today. I want them to step out of the fog of
history and stand in the spotlight.
As
any nonfiction book should be, my books are filled with the facts. But along
with the facts, I do my best to deliver maximum emotional impact. I want
readers to FEEL my books.
At
the beginning of my career, I didn’t know how deeply I would need to dig into
my own emotional life to write about the lives of others. When I look back through
my books, I recognize tiny fragments of myself scattered across the pages.
Carla Killough
McClafferty
is an award-winning author of nonfiction books. She is a popular speaker at
schools and teacher conferences both in person and via video conferencing. Her
books have been recognized for excellence with starred reviews in Booklist, Publishers Weekly, School Library
Journal, and more. She is an active member of iNK
Think Tank
that produces The Nonfiction Minute. She joins other
writers on the blog TeachingAuthors.com Visit her website at
carlamcclafferty.com
This is beautiful. Thank you showing how personal vulnerability can fuel meaningful stories.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your heartbreaking losses, Carla! It sounds like you found some cathartic comfort translating them into your nonfiction books. Congrats on them!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry about the loss of your son. Thank you for sharing your journey. Looking forward to reading your books!
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